Under the Surface of the Unheard Parent

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“It’s time to get ready for bed. Go put on your pyjamas,” I firmly request. My kids begin shouting and hollering in protest. Again, I sternly assert myself: “You have school tomorrow. It’s time now to put on your pyjamas.” As if on cue for a wild party, my girls race from room to room. They jump on the bed. They climb all over their dad.

At this point, I can feel anger bubbling and brewing deep inside of me. My breathing becomes shallow. My body grows tense. I state my request one final time. My seven-year old daughter walks past me as if I were invisible. Now it’s too late. There is no turning back. My anger boils over. Like a deranged monster, I yell at my children to get ready for bed NOW! Every night I promise myself I won’t get mad. Every night it’s the same old story.

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The unheard parent. Whether we pester our kids to clean up their toys, get ready for bed or do their homework, it all comes down to the same thing. We are demanding to be heard. Demanding to be respected. Demanding that someone (in this situation, our kids) will confirm that our wishes, needs and feelings are valid.

As we all know, parenting isn’t all unicorns and rainbows. And it isn’t meant to be. We are here on this planet to experience the spectrum of human emotions and to learn, grow and heal. Parenting — in all its frustrating and exhausting glory — offers us a wealth of opportunities for healing.

Whether we realize it or not, our children trigger stored emotions that have been camping out inside of us for a long time, often since we ourselves were little kids. These buried emotions, beliefs and fears affect our current well-being, our perception of the world and how we react to life.

This past summer I watched a dad on the beach with his young family. His five-year old daughter was upset and crying loudly. The dad was growing increasingly tense, stiffening like a stone statue. Agitated, he impatiently asked his daughter what was wrong. His tone sounded like a hissing snake, threatening an attack. The little girl sobbed while explaining that sand had gotten into her ice cream. She knew she would have to throw away her half-eaten treat. Her dad responded with an angry “stop crying!” When the little girl continued to cry, he repeated his demand: “stop crying!” The little girl cried more. “Riley, STOP crying!!”

The longer I watched this man, the more he appeared like a little boy, stomping his feet and shouting. A small child who desperately wanted to be heard. A boy who longed for attention and yearned for someone (likely a parent or care giver) to acknowledge that his feelings and wishes were relevant. Inside this man was an upset little boy who was pouring gasoline on the dad’s fiery reaction to his daughter.

There are two things happening in life. The first is what is actually happening. The second is how we SEE the situation and how we FEEL about what is happening.

For example, it’s likely that my over-the-top hysterical reaction when my girls don’t listen often has more to do with my own inner emotional landscape, than the actual situation. With this in mind, I took my frustration and anger to my meditation in order to shine some light and take a closer look.


Here is what I discovered.

With my eyes closed, I imagined a recent episode when my eldest daughter didn’t listen to me. I allowed my anger to grow in intensity, igniting a roaring fire within me. After allowing myself to fully feel and honour my anger, I then sank into what was underneath.

Open and curious, I became aware of feeling invisible and excluded. I then asked to be shown when in childhood I felt this way. Suddenly I saw an image of myself as a very young toddler in a room with adults, who stood with their backs to me, laughing and chatting. Little me watched from the periphery of the room. Nobody noticed me. It felt like life was happening, but I wasn’t part of it. I felt invisible. Unseen, unheard, unimportant. (Revelation alert! This is also the way I feel when my kids ignore my requests.)

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A seemingly insignificant event. Nothing terrible occurred. Nobody was physically hurt. But regardless of the actual situation, how little me felt about it left an energetic imprint within me.

In a second meditation, I noticed a clenching sensation of fear in my body…and again, a desolate feeling of being invisible. Asking to be shown when in childhood I felt scared and invisible, I saw myself at about four years old standing outside a house. At the end of the driveway, I saw my mom deep in conversation with my dad. When little me tried to get my parents’ attention, they didn’t notice me or possibly ignored me. I could feel some urgency in getting their attention. Perhaps my little brother needed adult care inside the house. I’m not aware of the details. But what is clear is that I had been harbouring a little girl’s feeling of helplessness, as well as a fear-based belief that when I am unnoticed or ignored something unsafe could happen. (Revelation alert! By adding a splash of panic, this underlying belief was increasing the intensity of my meltdowns when my kids didn’t listen.)

Now you might say — this is ridiculous! Of course small children are ignored at times while parents engage in adult conversations, work at home or respond to a text that just dinged on our phone. Am I seriously suggesting that feeling unheard and unseen as a small child can affect how we react and feel when our kids don’t listen to us today? Yes, I believe that this has some influence on us. Feeling unheard and unseen as a small child could underlie our intense, emotion-fuelled desire to be heard as a parent, as well as spark our anger and hurt when we are not.

Please note however that I am not in any way placing fault on our parents for not giving us their undivided attention at all times. This article is not about blaming others or judging ourselves. The intention of this article is to encourage us to take an open-minded, curious look at the emotions and beliefs that are stashed within us. And to see how these stored emotions could affect how we perceive events and trigger our emotional responses to life and our relationships.

Take a moment to reflect on these questions:

Do you find that you often feel disappointed or let down by others?

Do you often feel like your kids or other people don’t show you respect?

Do you feel helpless and unseen when your kids disregard your requests?

Do you notice yourself reacting to situations in an exaggerated, over-dramatic way?

For those of us who answered yes to any of the above, you may feel inspired to take a closer look within.

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The following short meditation helps us see and release stagnant emotions, opening the door for us to feel calmer, clearer, lighter and more centred in our day.


Sit in a quiet space with your eyes closed. Enjoy five deep breaths. With each inhale, witness the breath. Pause. With each exhale, witness the breath.

Bring your awareness to the top of your head to your crown chakra. See the top of your head opening wide. See or feel a bright, sparkly white light as it enters into your crown. Continue to breathe as you witness your entire being filled with this radiant, divine light.

Now bring to mind a situation when your child didn’t listen to you. Allow whatever emotion is present to rise up. Feel the anger, frustration or rage. Don’t look away or deny your emotions. Truly, deeply FEEL them.

Now tune into what emotion is underneath. Perhaps it is a feeling of helplessness. Or maybe there is a belief that you are not worthy of being heard. Not worthy of attention, affection or love. Or perhaps there is a fear that when kids don’t listen something bad happens.

Now ask to be shown a time as a child when you experienced these feelings and beliefs. Ask: “When have I felt this feeling of “___” as a child?”

Rest in quiet and allow an image or memory to present itself. Breathe and soften as you allow yourself to feel the emotions that surface. Stay with the emotions that are present. (If nothing comes to your awareness, that is ok too.)

There may be tears. Or perhaps a growl of frustration. Or you might want to give little you (your inner child) permission to verbally express your hurt or anger toward the adult who upset you. (This is an exchange in your imagination.) Allowing your emotions to have an expression can help to release these stored feelings.

After you have fully and deeply felt these stored emotions, it’s time to let this energy go. See or feel this stored emotion as it moves up, up, up and out through the top of your head, letting it go. Perhaps it appears like a bubbling creek flowing up and out or maybe the energy shoots out of your crown chakra like a powerful geyser. Breathe, soften and let the emotion go.

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Emotions are energies that are meant to move. When emotions are held and stored within us, they can muddy our perceptions, opinions and behaviours.

Raising our voices with our kids is sometimes purposeful. It is also perfectly ok and expected that we may feel frustrated when our children challenge us by not listening. The idea of a blissed-out parent who never raises her voice is not realistic. (Or at least not realistic in my world.)

Our life is full of opportunities to grow and heal. Our relationships with our kids are prime examples of this. Our kids are meant to trigger us so that we may heal and evolve. Feeling triggered is a gift. When unwrapped and looked at with an open mind, this gift offers powerful healing opportunities.

Inner peace and happiness require taking an honest, non-judgemental look at our own stuff, feeling our stored emotions and letting them go.


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